8. Sun
9. Front door
10. Self portrait
11. Makes you happy - my 2 beautiful boys
12. In your closet
13. Blue - crayon on the tiles means one cranky Mummy
Monday 13 February 2012
February Photo a Day Challenge cont.
Here is the next installment of my February Photo A Day Challenge being hosted by Fat Mum Slim.
8. Sun
11. Makes you happy - my 2 beautiful boys
8. Sun
11. Makes you happy - my 2 beautiful boys
Thursday 9 February 2012
Thursday Three: What I'm Procrastinating About...
I have been know by some in my life as the 'Procrastination Queen'...I don't know if I really should be admitting that or not. But my point is that I could probably list off tens of things that I am putting off with some kind of excuse for each and every one of them. Anyway, I need only come up with three - that should be a piece of cake!
Linking up with Life As We Know It for the Thursday Three.
- For a start, I am sitting here blogging while my kitchen is full of dirty dishes - I really should be cleaning up before my husband gets home from Melbourne later tonight, but I don't feel like it lol.
- I also have several baskets of clean washing that need to be put away...but I always seem to find something better to do when I think about them.
- Almost every craft project I have ever started has not been finished. Scrapbooking, cardmaking, a number of cross stitches...I seem to get to a point, and then just can't be bothered anymore. Any suggestions as to how to stay motivated to actually finish some of these would be greatly appreciated!
Linking up with Life As We Know It for the Thursday Three.
Wednesday 8 February 2012
Tuesday 7 February 2012
I Miss Him So Much...& Yes, I'm a Sook.
My husband left early on Sunday morning to fly to Melbourne for a conference. He will be back late on Thursday night. That's only 5 days without him...easy, right? No - well, not for me anyway. As much as I am happy for him that he can go to gain experience & network for his career, I really wish he didn't have to go.
I am still struggling with my PND (although it does seem to be improving now that I'm on a new medication), & although our 2 boys are pretty well behaved for the most part, it is very draining - both physically & emotionally when he is not here to help and support me. I have plenty of family and friends who are willing to help if needed but I am one of those people who will not ask for help unless I am absolutely desperate (& that's still no guarantee). I think this contributed to my PND too, but I will leave that for another day.
I have been coping really well & getting things done up until this afternoon. From the time I arrived at daycare to collect Master N right up until bedtime, he was being cheeky. Not really naughty, just pushing the boundaries a little more than usual. That seemed to be enough to trigger a dip for me, but at least he (& his little brother) are now in bed and quiet, if not actually asleep (I'm not game to check on him just yet lol).
As with any night we are apart, I talked to my husband on the phone and felt a little better. After we said goodnight, we hung up and then the tears came. I just miss him so much - the next 2 days will not go fast enough!
I am still struggling with my PND (although it does seem to be improving now that I'm on a new medication), & although our 2 boys are pretty well behaved for the most part, it is very draining - both physically & emotionally when he is not here to help and support me. I have plenty of family and friends who are willing to help if needed but I am one of those people who will not ask for help unless I am absolutely desperate (& that's still no guarantee). I think this contributed to my PND too, but I will leave that for another day.
I have been coping really well & getting things done up until this afternoon. From the time I arrived at daycare to collect Master N right up until bedtime, he was being cheeky. Not really naughty, just pushing the boundaries a little more than usual. That seemed to be enough to trigger a dip for me, but at least he (& his little brother) are now in bed and quiet, if not actually asleep (I'm not game to check on him just yet lol).
As with any night we are apart, I talked to my husband on the phone and felt a little better. After we said goodnight, we hung up and then the tears came. I just miss him so much - the next 2 days will not go fast enough!
Linking up for the first time with Diary of a Stay At Home Mum for IBOT.
February Photo a Day Challenge - Week 1
I have started Fat Mum Slim's February Photo A Day Challenge, and will be sharing my creations each week.
1. My view - lying on the grass with my boys looking up at the sky.
2. Words - missing my husband while he is at a conference.
3. Hands.
Stay tuned for next week's photos :-)
1. My view - lying on the grass with my boys looking up at the sky.
3. Hands.
4. A stranger - picture in the local paper of a guy who Master N thought was from the Wiggles.
5. 10am.
6. Dinner - macaroni & cheese with hidden vegetables.
7. Button.
Stay tuned for next week's photos :-)
Monday 6 February 2012
Feeling a Little Lost Today
I go back to study in a few weeks. Even though I will be studying from home, I decided that I really need some time without the boys around so I can give my study 100% of my attention. Master N is nearly 2, & has been going to a family daycare twice a week since July 2011 (and went to a centre before that). But today, I sent Master T (nearly 5mths) for the first time. He is only going one day a week at this stage, and with today being the first I have been trying to enjoy some time to myself before uni starts. Every now & then though, I think I can hear him before realising he's not actually here with me. It's a very strange feeling with the house being so quiet! However, I must admit I haven't shed any tears this time around but I put that down to him being with his big brother, already knowing his carer & knowing that he is just around the corner.
Anyway, I was planning to continue my Simplify Your Life 52 week challenge catch-up, but alas my next challenge is to create a Family Mission Statement. I will (obviously) need to convince my husband to have some input into this but he is currently in Melbourne for a conference so I will need to wait until he gets home later in the week. In the mean time, I should probably get some housework done before I have to pick up the boys in a little while - wish me luck!
Anyway, I was planning to continue my Simplify Your Life 52 week challenge catch-up, but alas my next challenge is to create a Family Mission Statement. I will (obviously) need to convince my husband to have some input into this but he is currently in Melbourne for a conference so I will need to wait until he gets home later in the week. In the mean time, I should probably get some housework done before I have to pick up the boys in a little while - wish me luck!
Sunday 5 February 2012
It's been a while & SYL: Week 2
It's been a few weeks since I have posted - for that I am very sorry. The last few weeks have been a huge struggle for me, but I am slowly getting on top of it with the help of my wonderful husband, loving family & friends, & of course my GP. I hope to catch up on the Simplify your life 52 week challenge in the coming days, and as I am also undertaking Fat Mum Slim's February photo a day challenge I will post these photos at least weekly.
First things first...week 2 of the SYL 52 week challenge: Top 5 Core Values
I spent ages looking at Deb's values list and came up with the 10 values that stuck with me the most afterwards - honesty, listening, family, loyalty, faith, patience, success, perserverance, equality and support. I also came up with one of my own - respect. Choosing the top 5 from this list was VERY difficult for me, but I decided on the following as my top 5:
*Family
*Success
*Respect
*Equality
*Support
I then had to rank these in order of importance to me. As with the rest of this week's challenge, I found this really hard, but came up with the following:
1. Respect
I feel so strongly about the importance of respect. We should see it everywhere we go, every day, with everybody. But sadly, there are many people out there who just don't seem to care. I try my hardest to respect everyone - from my husband & children to the sales assistant at the supermarket to the annoying telemarketer on the phone. It is such an important part of building & maintaining relationships. I also believe that there would be a lot less judgement & dicrimination in the world if everyone respected everyone else.
2. Family
I know it sounds cliche, but my family means the world to me. All I ever wanted growing up was a family just like mine (I'm one of the lucky ones whose parents have been married for over 30 year,s & both my siblings & I have always been close with each other & our parents). I wanted more than anything to get married and become a Mum. The relationships I have with my husband, my children, my parents, my siblings & their families have taught me so much, & helped me become the woman I am today. I would be absolutely devastated if something were to break our family apart, & I would do anything to stop that from happening.
3. Equality
Racism. Gender discrimination. Intellectual ability. Physical appearance. Wealth. These are just a few issues that we have to deal with every day. I strive to create equality in all of these issues every day, and can only hope that you all do too. I know how it feels to be judged, and never want to make ANYone feel the way I have during these times.
4. Support
This is one of those values that would likely change over time. I have always tried to be someone who is supportive to anyone who needs it. Sometimes I have felt like I had a sign stuck to my forehead stating "Your personal counsellor - tell me all your problems." Maybe it's because I am a good listener (not so good at actually giving advice though...), maybe people are aware that I will try & support them in whatever they choose to do. I don't really know, but I do know that I have been in a LOT of situations where I have had the opportunity to support family, friends & even strangers. Now I understand how important it is to get that support. As a PND sufferer I am so thankful for the support I have had from my husband, my family, my friends & the professionals I have been in contact with. It has given me motivation to try even harder to be as supportive as I possibly can be whenever someone needs me.
5. Success
suc·cess /səkˈsɛs/
1. the favorable or prosperous termination of attempts or endeavors.
2. the attainment of wealth, position, honors, or the like.
3. a successful performance or achievement: The play was an instant success.
4. a person or thing that is successful: She was a great success on the talk show.
5. Obsolete . outcome.
Generally, when people think of success, they think of definitions like the one above (from http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/success); they think about money, careers etc. When I think of success, it's a little more abstract. I want to be successful in that I want to live a happy life knowing that my family will always be beside me, that I will always have friends to lean on & who can lean on me, that I can be a role model for my children, & that I can somehow make the world a better place (even just in my own tiny way). If I can do all of these things, I will consider myself successful.
So, there you go. It took a LOT of thought, & a LOT of time...but I came up with my top 5 core values in order of importance. I feel like I have just jumped a huge hurdle, & it feels great!
First things first...week 2 of the SYL 52 week challenge: Top 5 Core Values
I spent ages looking at Deb's values list and came up with the 10 values that stuck with me the most afterwards - honesty, listening, family, loyalty, faith, patience, success, perserverance, equality and support. I also came up with one of my own - respect. Choosing the top 5 from this list was VERY difficult for me, but I decided on the following as my top 5:
*Family
*Success
*Respect
*Equality
*Support
I then had to rank these in order of importance to me. As with the rest of this week's challenge, I found this really hard, but came up with the following:
1. Respect
I feel so strongly about the importance of respect. We should see it everywhere we go, every day, with everybody. But sadly, there are many people out there who just don't seem to care. I try my hardest to respect everyone - from my husband & children to the sales assistant at the supermarket to the annoying telemarketer on the phone. It is such an important part of building & maintaining relationships. I also believe that there would be a lot less judgement & dicrimination in the world if everyone respected everyone else.
2. Family
I know it sounds cliche, but my family means the world to me. All I ever wanted growing up was a family just like mine (I'm one of the lucky ones whose parents have been married for over 30 year,s & both my siblings & I have always been close with each other & our parents). I wanted more than anything to get married and become a Mum. The relationships I have with my husband, my children, my parents, my siblings & their families have taught me so much, & helped me become the woman I am today. I would be absolutely devastated if something were to break our family apart, & I would do anything to stop that from happening.
3. Equality
Racism. Gender discrimination. Intellectual ability. Physical appearance. Wealth. These are just a few issues that we have to deal with every day. I strive to create equality in all of these issues every day, and can only hope that you all do too. I know how it feels to be judged, and never want to make ANYone feel the way I have during these times.
4. Support
This is one of those values that would likely change over time. I have always tried to be someone who is supportive to anyone who needs it. Sometimes I have felt like I had a sign stuck to my forehead stating "Your personal counsellor - tell me all your problems." Maybe it's because I am a good listener (not so good at actually giving advice though...), maybe people are aware that I will try & support them in whatever they choose to do. I don't really know, but I do know that I have been in a LOT of situations where I have had the opportunity to support family, friends & even strangers. Now I understand how important it is to get that support. As a PND sufferer I am so thankful for the support I have had from my husband, my family, my friends & the professionals I have been in contact with. It has given me motivation to try even harder to be as supportive as I possibly can be whenever someone needs me.
5. Success
suc·cess /səkˈsɛs/
1. the favorable or prosperous termination of attempts or endeavors.
2. the attainment of wealth, position, honors, or the like.
3. a successful performance or achievement: The play was an instant success.
4. a person or thing that is successful: She was a great success on the talk show.
5. Obsolete . outcome.
Generally, when people think of success, they think of definitions like the one above (from http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/success); they think about money, careers etc. When I think of success, it's a little more abstract. I want to be successful in that I want to live a happy life knowing that my family will always be beside me, that I will always have friends to lean on & who can lean on me, that I can be a role model for my children, & that I can somehow make the world a better place (even just in my own tiny way). If I can do all of these things, I will consider myself successful.
So, there you go. It took a LOT of thought, & a LOT of time...but I came up with my top 5 core values in order of importance. I feel like I have just jumped a huge hurdle, & it feels great!
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